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OH MY GOD!
06.17.05 (6:49 pm)   [edit]

It has been forever!  I am so sorry.  I completely forgot I had this thing, to be honest.  Not like it would matter, I haven't written anything in forever.  The last thing I posted was the last thing I wrote I think.  I've had a bad case of writer's block.


But have no fear, I have made it a point to find something to post ASAP

 
Why Are You Still Here?
05.08.05 (5:23 pm)   [edit]

I couldn't remember if I had posted this one already or not, so here it is, [possibly] again.


Look at me
Look at what I have done
I am a horrible excuse
     For a human being.
I am shallow
I am stubborn
Contemptuous
     And vain.


Why are you still here?


Look at me
See what I’ve become
I look after no one
     Except myself.
I am spiteful
I am harsh
Manipulative
     And cold.


Why are you still here?


Look at me
Look what I have done
I don’t know the face
     Frowning from the mirror.
I should change.
I can’t change
I won’t change.
     I fear it.


Why are you still here?


Don’t look at me
Don’t acknowledge me at all
Loving me is really
     More than I deserve.
I am selfish
I am moody
Recalcitrant
    A nd snide


Tell me--why are you still here?


Don’t look at me
Hate me like you should
This is who I am
     There is no other me.
I am sad
I am cowardly
Insidious
     And trite.


Why are you still here?

 
Little master Don, don't leave a coffin at home!
05.03.05 (6:26 pm)   [edit]

Okay, so I haven't exactally been very good about posting on this thing.  I'm sorry.  Right now, my Microsoft programs are freaking out, and my notebooks are in my car, so I don't have a good poem to show you.  The only one I can really remember....


Diana is a birdwatcher
And it’s getting pretty boring.
She picks up her binoculars
And already she is snoring.


*awaits applause*


Okay, I know it's dumb, but it made me giggle.

 
Waiting
04.24.05 (6:26 pm)   [edit]

Slender beams of light enter
This darkened chamber as I kneel,
Always somber, always lost
Frozen here,
Waiting.


Angelic forms wrought in panes of glass loom as
Dust dances in the air.
Forming an image in my mind
Searing my soul.

Within the silence I sit
And wait.

 
Me and Squishy
04.24.05 (6:19 pm)   [edit]

Aaawww....girly moment.



 


Okay.  I'm done, I swear.

 
Not a poem, just a complaint
04.23.05 (5:50 pm)   [edit]

:x


Oh.


My.


God.


It's snowing.


In fucking APRIL.

 
Oh the agony...
04.19.05 (11:33 am)   [edit]

[Just kidding.  (see subject line)]


I think it is time to shake things up a little bit.  Instead of a poem, I am going to post a short story.  I'm sorry it sucks.  This is the first of a two part story.  And it sucks.  I apologize.


“Such expletives are not necessary.”


“Dipshit isn’t a bad word.”


“It is when you‘re referring to me.”


Richard winced as a cupboard door slammed and the sound of silverware crashed and clattered upon the porcelain tile. The hideous sound echoed and bounced against the concrete walls.


The pain in his skull spread and pulsed around his temples, running down his spine.


Elizabeth hummed to herself as she worked in the poorly lit kitchen. Richard listened numbly as he sat up from his bedding. His arms felt dead—bulky and cumbersome. He cursed as he fought to find the will to stand. The drone of electricity increased as his head spun and his stomach lurched. Elizabeth’s humming grew louder as his knees buckled underneath him. With every dainty note, something inside him died little by little.


“Why don’t you go out with Naomi tonight?” he suggested. Get lost bitch. He felt like screaming.


“But I’m cooking dinner.” She whined.


“I would rather eat rat poison.”


“What did you say? I can’t hear you when you mumble baby.”


Baby. His stomach churned and lurched.


“Forget about it Liz. I’m not going to eat anyway.”


“Well…” she pondered, “I haven’t got any money.”


“There’s a fifty under the left couch leg.” Elizabeth squealed and he suppressed a groan of irritation.


“I love you,” she leaned down to kiss him but he pulled away and she grinned at him. “Don’t forget to feed the fish.” She reminded.


Fuck off. He just wanted her to leave. Two hours of silence is all he needed. If he could not have peace it was likely Richard would kill himself. Or Elizabeth. Or both. Either way, he would be doing society a favor.


Grabbing up her bag, she pranced out the door, leaving Richard in darkness with nothing but the faint scent of her obnoxiously sweet perfume.


Suffocation. That’s what living in Eazru was like. Dirt, dust, and smoke plagued his every breath and yet people flocked to the city like vultures to a rotting carcass.


“You’re pathetic.” He glared into the grimy mirror. How could God create something as ugly, weak, and deplorable as he? His mother had been right; she should have had an abortion.

 
Doing laundry sucks.
04.16.05 (5:38 pm)   [edit]

Fireworks


Beautiful, bright


Dazzling, sparkling, falling


Rocketing, shining, invisible, dark


Flying, shooting, dropping


Dying, silent


Darkness.

 
Would you like a cup of coffee?
04.16.05 (5:34 pm)   [edit]

I'm getting second thoughts about putting all of my poems on this thing...Some of them suck, some of them are super-personal.  I'm not saying I'm not going to put any of them up, I'm just debating which ones I want to put up.


What to you think?  Some or all?

 
Crazy Ohioans
04.16.05 (6:08 am)   [edit]

This is the weirdest sign ever..


 
The Substitute
04.16.05 (5:43 am)   [edit]

A funny little man
With a neon yellow spade
Was walking down the hallway
With a glass of lemonade.


The furniture starts creaking
And the books fly off the shelves
The children scream and run away
In attempt to save themselves.


The apples are exploding
The plants sprout razor blades
Flames erupt from toilet bowls
As chaos now invades.


“I am Lucibu the Goat!”
“Bow down and kiss my feet!”
He grins and points and laughs and says,
“You are all now mine to eat.”

 
Kiss the Moon
04.15.05 (10:41 pm)   [edit]

A strawberry blow pop
A watermelon
A chocolate covered cherry


A fortune cookie
A peach
A fist full of tokens


An envelope
A purse
A pocket full of change


A cookie jar
A book
A mason jar of marbles


The peanut kisses the moon and says,
“This is me; I am this.”


[I love metaphors.  If you couldn't tell before, you definitely can now.]

 
The Artist Speaks of Colors
04.15.05 (10:35 pm)   [edit]

I’ve known colors:


I’ve known colors as fair as crimson and darker


     Than charcoal.


My soul has grown bold like the colors.


I feel liberated as my brush hit’s the canvas when I begin to paint.


I built my life around my passion and it prospered.


I heard the praises of contemporary devotees when it was on display



     And I’ve seen judges beam with satisfaction.


I’ve known colors:


     Lustrous, beautiful colors.


My soul has grown bold like the colors.

 
Memory--Arlington National Cemetery
04.15.05 (10:29 pm)   [edit]

Memory--Arlington National Cemetery



Men with white gloves and spotless uniforms
Take the flag as the clergy informs
Us it is time to start.


We drive down the path in silence, staring
Out of the windows, Autumn sun blaring
Into our eyes through tinted windows.


After five minutes we step out of our ride
Standing in line, family at my side
They bring him out, ashes on left, flag on right.


My knees are like rubber, unstable
And through my tears I’m barely able
To balance myself; my hand seeks Michelle’s.


We sit and sob in green careening chairs
As the clergy recites the funeral prayers
“Ashes to ashes; dust to dust.”


The guns in the distance thunder
As TAPPS by the French Horn plunders
Piercingly through the air.


I’ll miss you, Grandpa.

 
KKKHHHAAANNN!!!
04.15.05 (9:48 pm)   [edit]

W00t--first post!  (Hold the applause for the end, thank you.)


Okay here's the deal.  I will mostly be posting short stories and poetry on this thing (most of which are works in progress).  I'm not a very interesting person, so I don't think I will talk much about me.  I apologize for the colors and layout of the page right now, it is about 2 a.m. and I am starting to get really goddamn tired.  Perhaps I will fool around with it tomorrow sometime.


Cross your fingers.